The age old quetion.

So over the past few days I have been continually perplexed by the same question over and over. If you knew an event was going to take place that was going to turn your whole world upside down forever and you couldn't do anything about it, what would you do?

I am a person who has always been able to welcome change into his life. Change that brings events to maturation and fruition in a very progressive way. When faced with a quandary of this magnitude that will affect everyday life in such an uncertain way how can you be expected to carry on with a smile on your face. I've always tried to pride myself on the ability to not be read by others, but it seems that more and more so everyday that I am loosing the ability to hide what is wrong. Over the past few months of unprecedented change I have had the opportunity to look back at my life, fix the mistakes made, and move forward. I feel that where I am in life today is such a gift, something that no matter how hard I could try to ignore could never be so. I have been given the tools to live a life that can be so very rewarding on a daily basis. So what do I do when I feel that all the progress I have made as a person is facing certain execution. Times like these always remind me of the very famous poem "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I realized that no matter how hard I try that life is going to laugh at me when I try to make plans. Life is going to test me at every turn. Life is going to be a very cruel lover. Life is life. I can make the decision to accept what is going to happen and move on or make the decision to hide from the world and hope that is blows over. I choose to stand and accept what is going to happen because I know that in the end I will be every stronger by the decisions I make. I love the life I have been given and will do anything and everything in my power to stay grounded and be thankful to be here.

In the end it was a very simple prayer that I say everyday what gave me the strength to carry on,

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

The First

So I am sitting at school and just starting to get into this blogging thing. I promise to start keeing this one up and maybe turn it into something amazing!!! Just bare with me as I learn how to use this.